Bursting With Hatred!

I hate to be screamed at!
I hate to be screamed at in the middle of the night!
I hate to be screamed at something i'm not at fault in the middle of the night!
I hate to be the victim for anything at all!
I hate to be promised something knowing that whatever promised will definitely NOT happen!
I hate to be called bloody stupid by the person whom i think is not any better & deserves no respect!
I hate to be disturbed by matters which are purposely amplified!
I hate hypocrites!
I hate people who always find faults on other people but never once think of their own doings!
I hate people who think big of themselves!
I hate people who never apologize for their extremely rude & disrespectful attitude!
I hate people who are fake!
I hate people who don't listen!
I hate people to disturb my study mood which rarely comes!
I hate making people stuck in between!
I hate making things complicated!
I hate complications!
I hate feeling messed up!
I hate to say things i don't mean!
I hate doing things l don't like to do just because that's the only thing i should do!
I hate to hate!

what a day!

im suppose to hog the computer now so that my younger bro can't play. wow. this is the first time my mom actually ask me to use the comp! -_-"

so im kinda bored now. so i decided to blog about what happened today.

my mom went out this afternoon. as i was doing maths, i got really fustrated cuz i had been working on the same short vector question for more than half an hour but yet still can't solve it. with my younger brother irritating me by screaming stupid stuff to me, i really couldn't hold back my temper anymore!

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we got ourselves into a huge fight! i ended up with just a few cuts. ouch! but nothing feels better than victory!

btw, i took that photo after washing the wounds. before washing, there were blood stains all over my fingers & i only realised that i had these wounds half an hour later when i was trying to bend my fingers to pick up the eraser, i felt my fingers hardened & there was a slight burning sensation.

when i looked at my finger, i was stunned! by the red flaky stuff covering my fingers..

after washing those off only i realised that it's not dried red ink.. but dried blood!

Three Cheers For Five Years!

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you

To late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

And I will always remember you
as you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now
Remember you now

Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips

I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you
I want to

[ Three Cheers For Five Years by Mayday Parade ] - love this song!

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What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor?
Couldn’t take this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do? (do, do)
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I’m not running from you

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You’re killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You’re killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break?

[ The Kill by 30 Seconds To Mars ]

something random

Just something random.. and lucky for you bitch! you are the chosen one!


"BITCH! whoever you are, don't think i don't know what you're trying to do! you better watch your mouth before i'll give it a tight slap & burn it! who do you think you are? you think you're special? yes, you are, but NOT in this lifetime! know your limits and no, you don't have any advantage for being whoever to that someone! yes, i am selfish, self-centered, possessive, sensitive, unforgiving, have problems accepting certain things and watever you wana call me. but one thing for sure is that I'M MORE WORTHY THAN YOU! don't be jealous because that will only make you uglier! before i clear up my problem, i just wana let you know that i hate you! not for who you are, but for what you did! and i want you to remember that for the rest of your life!"


dear readers, please do not feel offended by words used in this post. because the person who suppose to read this does not have the access to my blog. so don't worry, it's not anyone of you. and it's just something random. something that just came across my mind. so there is no need to comment or ask me about it. thank you for reading.